I can't really put words to what I am thinking, feeling right now. Excitement, nervousness, fear, splendor, surprise and more. B and I have been off birth control over two years now. I had finally resolved that we could not have a child. It was never confirmed. I didn't want to ever be tested, because doing so would make the results too real.
The only reason I took the tests today was so I would stop thinking I might be. We got back from New york yesterday evening where my Mom and Aunt Linda spent time talking at length that I was presenting signs of being pregnant. I thought today I was proving them wrong. Instead, I'm planning for the official confirmation that they are right and the family announcement of the fact. Alright, I'm going to take the fourth test.
I'm pregnant.
